Let’s pop some champagne and throw some confetti! I’m celebrating the 1 year anniversary of my D-I-V-O-R-C-E!!! Yup, I said what I said, I didn’t celebrate it when it happened but now now I’m ready and best believe its gonna be better than good. Some might say that 9 years wasn’t a good run but… “You don’t know my life and You ain’t laid down”.
Look, I came, I saw, I did, I’m done and now I gotta run! I tried lots of things to save my marriage however, I can’t be the only one fasting, praying and seeking the Lord, a girl gotta eat! Some people say marriage is 50/50 but to me marriage is 1 whole person plus 1 whole person to make a marriage but if there is only 1 whole person fighting for it then you just alone, right?! Don’t get me wrong marriage is a sacred covenant that I have great respect for. ‘Therefore what God has joined let no man put asunder’, Matt 19:6 KJV, but if the man putting asunder is your husband then what?! After doing all that you can just stand…now I’m standing by myself. Hey, my ex is a great guy and an awesome father but he’s just not My husband. I’m grateful for all that we had and the product which are our beautiful children.
So, today I celebrate without all the guilt and sadness that I initially felt but with happiness (seeking joy in the small things daily), about my new found peace, freedom, singleness???
I’m excited about my future and for all that God has in store for me!
Now I can give my new relationship my undivided attention and He can just really have His way with me because NOW I’m ready to surrender to His will. Will there be moments of loneliness, fear, anxiety, etc? Yes, I’m sure there will be but I’m trusting God, knowing that He is the author and the finisher of my Faith and is true to His word ALWAYS! I know that He has a plan for my life and I’m excited to go on this Journey with Him, trusting Him more and more everyday (notice the focus there). Nope, I’m not the least bit worried about which man ah go pick me up with 2 pickney (say that in your most strong Caribbean accent, lol) because I’m focused on Him. Not worried about whether or not I’m going to get married again or not- not right now anyway. Today will be the day I look back on my marriage knowing that, ‘It was good that I was afflicted, for it taught me to pay attention to YOUR decrees Psalm 119:71 NLT‘. And, there are many decrees to learn but just like God has patient with me, I too will be patient with myself while I learn them.
“There is a purpose to your pain,”-Dr. Kelita Jones
Yes, I got divorced but now I’m & married- to Jesus!! And I’m going to be okay. With God it always is.